Deliver me

Deliver me from my prideful mind
It weighs heavier on me all the time
What a silent, yet, such a deadly crime
To think that I own my own life

So humble me just like You did
The king who lost his mind in the wilderness
And don’t let me go back
Until I confess
You are the only God

How can I despise my brother
When I killed Your only begotten Son?
Help me prefer another and say
You are the only God

This morning my alarm went off
Earlier than I’d ever want
And in this small obedience, Lord
Help my heart stay bowed down

Father, You’ve given Jesus
All those He will raise up
And all eyes, including mine, will see
You are the only God
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My prayer that’s on my heart for a few days.. it’s parts from a song called “deliver me” by Bethany Dillon. Those words moved my heart to pray and bow down before Him. Hope and pray that you will be blessed as well.

On the other note, i’m doing fine, but tired. school work is a bit overwhelming but i’m trying to enjoy it. Plus, allergy came back today so i have a stuffy nose and a sore throat i’ll get better. Have a wonderful day!

Love, Fire, and

Fresh bread

I’m amazed/humbled by His goodness and presence every time we gather together as a church! We were having our regular friday night worship and we were finishing up by praying for a few things together corporately. I felt like God was nudging me to share something to all of us.

It was about fresh bread.

The smell of fresh bread makes people hungry. That fresh bread from Heaven is available for everyone. I immediately had a picture of Israelites in my mind. How God sent manna from heaven EVERYDAY. Daily portion of manna was available for them, except for the sabbath. God didn’t give them a week/month amount of bread to survive, but provided daily fresh bread. Just like that, God offers us a fresh bread from heaven everyday for us. Each day’s portion is different and new. It gets better everyday.

Before i went up to the front to share, i asked Him what’s on His heart for us. I couldn’t think of anything else than fresh bread and many different pieces started to come together in my mind really fast along with this rebuke/encouragement.

“Why are you contenting with the bread that is weeks and months old?”

Why are we looking back to our old blessings and be satisfied and thinking that it’s enough? Old bread does no good to us! It’s got molds and no nutrition. We cannot afford to do that when He has fresh bread from heaven for us Everyday. And it’s Free. We just need to come to Him and get it!

Yesterday’s blessing is yesterday’s blessing. Today is a new day. God has something new for us TODAY.

After i shared, hawon came up to me and told me that Isaiah 55 was on his heart all night.
V1-3, “Come, everyone who thirsts, come to the waters; and he who has no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without price. Why do you spend your money for that which is not bread, and your labor for that which does not satisfy? Listen diligently to me, and eat what is good, and delight yourselves in rich food. incline your ear, and come to me; hear, that your soul may live; and I will make with you an everlasting covenant, my steadfast, sure love for David.”

Wow. May He give you hunger for fresh bread from heaven daily.

Love, Fire,

By our love

“Brothers, let us come together
Walking in the Spirit, there’s much to be done…
We will come reaching, out from our comforts
And they will know us by our love…

Sisters, we were made for kindness
We can pierce the darkness as He shines through us…
We will come reaching, with a song of healing…
And they will know us by our love!

The time is now
Come Church arise…
Love with His hands
See with His eyes…
Bind it around you,
Let it never leave you,
And they will know us by our love…”

It’s from a beautiful song by Christy Nockels. May that be the prayer and our reality for this broken generation! Lord let your church arise!

Love, Fire, and

Only by His grace

In John 5:1-9, there is a story about one man who had been an invalid for 38 years. During worship team meeting on Sunday, God reminded me of this simple, but powerful truth.

from verse 6, “When Jesus saw him lying there and knew that he had already been there a long time, he said to him, “Do you want to be healed?” The sick man answered him, “Sir, i have no one to put me into the pool when the water is stirred up, and while i am going another steps down before me.”

Jesus asked him a pretty direct/easy question saying, “Do you want to get well?”

God is asking all of us, “Do you want to get well? Do you want to live in freedom? Are you ready..?”

Often we respond back with excuses.. i mean, we can make lists of excuses..

I heard a still small voice saying, “Only thing that will get you ready to receive what i have for you is my grace.”
It’s not about how much time you spent in qt and the things that you’ve done so far. Of course if we’re mature enough, we know that all those come as a package once we understand the goodness of His grace, but only thing that will help us to receive is His grace. If it was not, religious teachers and pharisees would have been Jesus’ favorite people.

I had to repent because i forget that so many times..
We need to shake ourselves up, realizing that it’s not about us.

Love, Fire, and

p.s. Grace: Getting what we do not deserve.

Things on my heart for 2010

There are alot of things that i want to do this year..
Do excellent in school and clinical, read the Word daily and going deeper into the Word, more fire and give fire, heal the sick, raise the dead, cast out demons, lead people to Jesus, going deeper in worship, more anointing in leading worship, sing in Spirit more, sing one song for 30min, write songs, put anointing oil on everything, practice guitar, eat healthy, work out more, develop cooking skills, master the song “man in the mirror” by Michael Jackson, meet a “special friend”, go to bethel’s school of worship in summer, raise money for the last one, record a few songs, get healed of allergy and eczema, revival healing service at hamada, and…. many more..

In doing all of those.. i want to focus on these five passages.
Psalm 27:4 “One thing have i asked of the Lord, that will i seek after: that i may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to inquire in his temple.” God re-stirred the desire of this verse again.. I want to be able to say that with all my heart.. to dwell in the house of the Lord.. to gaze upon the Beauty.. Love that.
Song of Solomon 1:2 “Let him kiss me with kisses of his mouth! For your love is better than wine;” This is a bride confessing her love for the groom. She is so in love, and sick with love. His love is better than wine, meaning it’s better than the things of the world, the life itself. Let Him love you and cherish you! How wonderful will it be when all of us confess that to Him.
Matthew 5:3 “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.” Realizing that i’m not but HE IS. I’m nothing, but He is everything. Being needy and greedy for more of Him. Hungry gets fed.
Ephesians 1:17-18 “That the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give you a spirit of wisdom and of revelation in the knowledge of him, having the eyes of your hearts enlightened, that you may know what is the hope to which he has called you, what are the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints…” It says enough for itself. So powerful. Release it Lord!
Ephesians 3:16-19 “That according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith—that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.” Summing all of the verses above, For this one. That i may know the love of God.. as personal living reality. Not as a message or a good experience, or a belief. As a Living Reality for me.. and hope and pray for you too.

I definitely need your prayers, and thank you.
I’m so excited for this year’s portion/blessing. God bless yall sincerely.

Love, Fire, and

Ghetto mama

Attention: all conversation is in English, including mom’s comment.

We were having a lovely family time, playing a game called “rummikub.” Havent tried it? Try it, it’s fun!

In the middle of the game, my brother jinwoo farted very loud. The deadly gas filled the atmosphere quickly. I said in a jokingly manner, “dude my brain just froze and I can’t think no more!” (the game requires alot of thinking)

Now, think of a korean mom who doesn’t really speak English, especially to family members.

She says, “broke brain!”

And..

“My brain is broke yo! My brain is broke!”

Wow. I was like ” did she really say that?” we laughed for a minute and still laugh thinking about it lol.

Just a little family moment for ya

Not For Him but With Him

“Enoch walked With God”

“Noah walked With God” Genesis 5,6.

This year, I’m not gonna try to do things For God. I’m doing all things With God. I wanna walk With Him not For Him.

That’s much more powerful life than trying to do things for Him. Bc we can only do so much. We’ll get tired and weary easily.

Praying with Him rather than at Him. Agreeing things that He has said and basically declaring and believing. Also to be sensitive to the voice of Him at moments and saying yes..

Retreat was a blast. I’ve never felt so much fire in my body and knocked down by Holy Spirit. My heart was full of peace and joy. Leading worship was much fun and blessing too. I’m learning a lot and so excited for more..

Alright 2010, it’s the year of tiger(me). Bring it on

Happy new year everyone!

Christmas story

Probably most of the humanity is familiar with Christmas story. Regardless of their religion or belief, everybody knows that it’s Jesus’ birthday.. Although the world is now afraid to use the word “Christmas” because it’s politically incorrect, which i think it’s just… nuts.

Between the old testament and the new testament, there is about 400 years of gap. Complete silence from God after prophecy after prophecy. We’re talking 400 years and that’s a LONG time. Talk about frustration and doubt.

And there was a cry of a baby.. from a virgin mother named Mary who was conceived by the Holy Spirit. Huh? Yeah i know.. that’s.. pretty weird and crazy.

A cry of a baby broke the 400 years of silence.

I’m so thankful and grateful that it wasn’t a condemnation, judgment, or a threat. God didn’t say, “Yall need to put yourselves together!” “Try harder, you can’t hang out with me if you keep sinning like that” But He spoke “The Word”, who is Jesus (remember how John 1 says the word is Jesus? and He became flesh?)

A Savior is born. It says in Luke 2:11 “For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord.”

Did i mention that Mary and Joseph probably had the worst day of their life? It was on the ‘tax day’ where everything is hectic and nobody likes that day. They had to go all the way to the Bethlehem from Galilee. On top of that there wasn’t even a room at a hotel! So they went in to an animal shelter type of cave.. and the one thing they probably were praying for.. and the last thing they would want is to have a baby on that night. Well… unfortunately the water broke and she gave a birth.

Christmas is about God coming to us on our worst day. When we are in the darkest hours of our lives. When we are weak.. He comes to us and say, “I’m here to help you and love you.” We all know that none of us are good, and none of us have everything together. But God became one of us, so full of grace and truth. He is here to take care of all our mess and He is not afraid of them.

What more do we want God to do for us..? Have we forgotten what He has done and what has happened to us and who we are because of that?

Christmas is here because Jesus is here. Immanuel, God with us. Praise God for Christmas.
Merry Christmas everyone

[inspired by Louie Giglio from Christmas tour]

A new temple

In the old testament time, if you wanted to see God and meet God, you had to go to the “temple of God.” that was the place where God dwelt and different kinds of physical manifestation was evident in that place. His glory was literally present.

In the new testament, God calls Us the “temple of the Holy Spirit.” We are the temple now. God shows up through us. In the things that we do and say, someone can encounter God. That’s why I believe that purity of our hearts and holiness of our lives is so significant. I realize that all we need to do is to be ourselves. We are made holy and new through Jesus and He calls us the temple of His spirit!

I pray that we will start or continue to be His holy temple to release His love to His beloved broken generation.

Happy December Christmas is near. Let’s celebrate.

Thanksgiving

I was at a walgreens buying some stuff. I was in the line for the cashier and this lady was in front of me.
She was wearing ragged clothes, and i was able to smell an awful odor from her. I immediately assumed that she was a very poor lady, maybe even a homeless. She was buying a couple of stuff.. a microwavable hamburger, a mac and cheese and an over-the-counter medicine… I didn’t even know walgreens had burgers! Well, i’ve never seen those instant burgers before..

Many thoughts flooded into my mind with compassion. “What would Jesus do..?”

Earlier on that day, i went to a korean market for a grocery. As i was food-shopping, i found myself being really hesitant to buy alot of things due to financial crisis. I was wanting so many things, but had to hold myself. I kind of felt really bad for myself. (I know, everybody is in financial crisis, and my point is not to have a pity on myself) I wasn’t complaining, but i wasn’t satisfied.

As the lady was getting out of the walgreens, i slowly drove away carefully watching her. She didn’t have a car (at least not on the parking lot), and walked across the street and disappeared. My heart was broken, and i repented.

It’s not a huge story, but it changed my heart. I mean, all of us know that we’re blessed, but we always forget. We need to be reminded as often as possible, we are forgetful people.

She may not even be a homeless, and she might have had just a really bad day or something. The point is, you and i are blessed. I have more reasons to be thankful for than not.

In this season, let’s remember.. Remember that we’re richly blessed. God has given us much, so we can give much. When we focus on the things that we already Have, we find joy.

I’m so excited for thanksgiving food